True Love of the Guru

This post was written in October 2005 but was taken out immediately at that time since it was felt that it was only suitable for little bit mature or advanced seekers... but His will is to post it now (on the occasion of the birth anniversary of Guru Gobind Singh Ji, known in the world today as the tenth Sikh Guru) for the time being... might take out again in the future... please be warned that the content of this post might not be suitable for starting seekers...

Why do I meditate? Why do I follow the spiritual path? Why do I do sewa and listen to satsang (however little I do). Why am I writing this? There must be some motive to all this? I'm sure there is. My mind is full of dirt, is polluted and must have some motive. What will I get out of all this? Happiness, bliss, money or fame? Or am I doing this for enlightenment, salvation, moksha or nirvana? Why did I become a disciple of my Guru? Why do I love (or claim to love) my Master?

I am sure my mind and intellect have some motive. I am sure it is a mixture of all the above. However, my heart tells me to love the Master without bound, without any motive, whether it be fame, money, happiness or bliss. Not even for enlightenment, salvation, moksha or nirvana! Just love the Guru because He is the way to the light, not for the light. Just love the Guru, because He comes even before the Absolute himself. Just love Him because it needs to be done. Just love Him because that is the Truth. Love Him and don't care what the end result is. Whether it's heaven, enlightenment, birth as an animal or even hell. Love Him because that's what I came here for.

Maybe one day will come that I shall succeed... till then...